I was panting, my heart hammering wildly. Every bloody step takes me closer to the finish line, I kept repeating to myself. Only my steps were quite unsteady and carefully considered on the steep muddy slope. The air, which seemed scarce, burned in my chest. I wasn’t quite ready for this, I assumed. But however bad it seemed I was determined. Determined not to give up. I can do this. Just keep going…

But why all this strain? What I imagined would be a lazy Saturday morning turned into something utterly different. Well, basically I found myself participating in a run in the woods – the track wasn’t particularly long but the nature of it made it demanding. Uphill, downhill, steep slopes with peaks taking their time till they welcomed you…

All the other runners were professionals or at least almost at such a level, mastering the track in less than a half of my time. I couldn’t care less! By the way, I was the last one to cross the finish line – and I mean literally the last one 😀 (together with my sweetheart, holding my hand firmly, encouragingly. Thank you for pushing me forward!). However, it was about something else – about surpassing yourself and even surprising yourself. It was like a revelation, really… As if somebody told me: did you know you can do it? Unless you try, you won’t find the answer or reassurance. Well, damn you can! The most important thing is to believe in yourself and never give up. Of course I imagined lying in my comfy bed huddled in warm covers… Of course it would have been easier, more comfortable, less troublesome. Of course I wished for at least a glass of water and a bit of magical energy recharging me again. Of course I wanted, I needed, I…

All that mattered was, that I did it! Giving up was a thought I pushed to the furthermost part of my mind. It kept dancing around, though, so I had to call that party quits! I reached the finish line and was genuinely proud of myself. And I thought why not? I deserve it. So all I’m trying to say is: don’t be shy to acknowledge your accomplishments. Be proud of yourself.

 

 

 

 

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